Was not as bad as I feared it would be.
I came early and sat in the chapel in hope to find somme peace. This is when this brother came in and said loudly “well, it is quiet a study atmosphere here.” To which I did not answer: yes, this is why you thought it would be appropriante to disturb it.
A sister made a smart comment when I told her: it would have probably helped if the door had been closed for him to feel a difference between what was going on there (me and some other members studying or pondering) and the lobby.
Anyway something happened. All of a sudden I saw all this as a play and I was just sitting in the theater. I think I have found a way not to be so much sensitive about the church and the members.
I need to try this trick again and to master in it. Maybe I can get some peace back.
On the same subject (meaning me and my progression) I have found this blog that helps me tremendously. It is very inspirational and it really helps me focus on what I feel I have lost and what I am searching for.
Supporting her to me is what RS is really about: