God who?

My sweet youngest sister is going through a “crisis”.

The kind of crisis everybody should go through but many are afraid to face those question she is asking.

Is there a God?

If there is a God then why is He not listening to me?

If there is a God am I in the right direction?

I have taken upon myself to help her with those questions. First I have made clear that there is no problem with these questions as many have asked it before and for those who were honestly seeking for an answer it seems that they all got it. I have also made her see for herself that the taboo she feels about those questions are not because of the church but because of just one or maybe two idiots at church. Sorry to use such a language but there are several people who wish to shut their mouth some times and we never do because we think they are just nuts and/or stupid and that “everybody” knows they’re wrong anyway.

Well as I have always thought the fact that they are wrong is not “obvious” for everybody. I am sorry that I am not going to be able to help all those whose tender spirituality is hurt by such an ignorant attitude but I can only help my little sister and I will.

First I hope I made clear that the path does not really matter and that what matters most is where she is headed to. If not I think I will discuss about it again just to make sure I have been clear.

Then I think she needs to “know” God. I am sorry to say so but “religion” does not invite to develop your own relationship with the Divine. If you grow up in a religion you just learn that you need to obey, obey, obey, be good, and obey. then comes the time when you start having questions and then you have two options: you burry them because you’re afraid of the answer. And you go on with your life and play pretend that you have understood it all. this holds as long as you don’t go through really hard trials and sometimes it does not last that long.

Or you’re not afraid because somewhere very deep inside you know you’re going to get an answer. And somewhere something is telling you not to be afraid of the answer. What is this that gives you this courage to ask and face your questions?

Well it is the fact that you already have this faith that will carry you through hard times but to have it flourish you need to make it grow and make it mature.

And this goes through questions and doubt and pain and tears. It is the birth of an adult soul and no birth goes without work.

I want to help my little sister craft her own soul with the direction of the Master. But first she needs to recognize His voice.

So my first idea has been to make her meet as many spiritual people as I can and make her meet as many different faiths as I can so through all those different path she can see the direction. This will take much time but in the end I know it will pay off.

I am connected again

It has been over a month since I should NOT have been disconnected.

I am back on the net and I have much to write about.

I think I am heading to breaking up communicating with my mother. I am not saying that I will do it next week or even next month. I am just saying that now I understand why I don’t need to have her as a constant reminder of what I could become because I know I won’t become like her.

I guess I won’t have to do much since she does not want to talk to me half of the time. I am not really happy of the situation that enabled me to understand why I should not fear to become my mother but I know it is better for me since it was one of my biggest barrier in some areas of my life.