I am trying to find a job that will be compatible with the one I already have and I may have found one but I still need to be hired.
I would not be much but it is good enough for me.
I have also downloaded the file to become a substitue teacher. I doubt it will help but I will be able to say that I will have done my best.
I doubt this is really what God has in store for me because if He wanted me to do this all my life there is actually a financially safer way for me to do it and He would have blessed me with success for this test.
I am still angry. Like really angry at myself. I don’t think, or maybe I just cannot remember, I have ever been this angry at myself.
Nobody is to be blamed for this failure but me.
I wish I had a way to express my feelings and emotions beside this blog. There are plenty of ways but none that I can afford.
Anyone’s got a good scripture for me please?
I don’t think there is one single scripture that really apply to anger in this case.
I am not angry at the jury. I think they wondered how in the world one could be this stupid. They probably don’t believe I can handle students and yet I can do it much better than a lot of teachers.
I am not even angry at the bad teachers I see around me. They just make me sad, not angry.
I am furious at myself because everything was easy. Everything was what I had been hoping for and I just spoiled my only chance to have something better.
I feel worthless not just because I failed but because I failed something that was given to me.
How in the world can I hope for something good if I cannot handle it properly?