I just hate it.
I have managed to keep my stress level pretty low until now. My sleep is crap. I fall asleep late and I wake up at 5.00 am. Gosh I just want to take this test and to pass it. I need to pass it. I feel like I am traped in a jar with a lid I can’t push because it is screwed.
God is the only one who has the power to unscrew it. I have been told thousands of ways to unscrew it myself but you know what? I am inside and it is just impossible to do it with my own means.
Could be because I am too short.
The fact is that once it is removed I know I can do some really good things.
I am not even asking for the lid to be removed the way I want, I am just asking for freedom.
I have been praying and fasting like crazy. I am told I am smart and educated and hard working…too bad these don’t matter to become a teacher. And I am tired of trying to explain my American friends why these don’t matter and what has been required so far from wannabe-teachers (aside from being lazy and stupid).
GOSH if you Americans take the socialist path I beg you not to become like us who are suffocating because we kept our head in the sand too long.
I am tired, upset, frustrated and tears are coming up. It is only 6.50 am.