I just hate it.
When I was rebaptized I decided to make a special effort about this one if I was not prevented from attending because of a calling or sickness. This was a way for me to show our Heavenly Father that I was ready to commit myself even if I thought it was stupid or pointless. I have done it until I got rebaptized since I got a clling rights away. LOL
What I mean is that I will hold on to this until I die because this is important to me. but I don’t see how my mind could change about this meeting. For me RS is just a women club and I don’t need it and therefore don’t feel like going. I very often hear things that want to make me scream coming from women who have had children. But since I have not had children I will not say anything…you know…
Today I expressed my point of view about RS to two sisters (not what I just wrote, a more diplomatic point of view of course).
I explained that “uplifting” is not possible in this way that if I were to bring what I look for in RS then I would make RS hard to follow for most women in our ward. They would not get the emotionnal uplift and strength they are getting from the “simple way” we have to do the lessons. So turning the RS into something that would suit me better by bringing what I am looking for is to me selfish.
I find what I am looking for already through my friendships, reading, internet. I don’t need to have another space and these sisters need this space because it is the only one they have. I had the hardest time making them understand it.
Me coming to RS does not mean that I am enjoying it. It means that I want to show that I am a part of the community and that they can count on me if needed. But I don’t feel comfortable with coming with what I know and finding myself taking the lesson over because I start explaining this or that and then time is over for the lesson. Then RS will become Gwennaëlle Society and I would just hate it (but for the 45 minutes of fame each week) it would just be insane as in “not clean”.
I had the hardest time making them understand that.
What do YOU think?